Anybody listened to Avril Lavgine's new song: Here's for never growing up?
I just listened to it, and it's cool, but the problem is it made me feel so bad. I'm somehow not a very social person, but I do appreciate my friends and love them. Lately, I'm in a bad condition but never really talked about it to anyone, pretending to be strong and all. That doesn't mean that it wasn't noticeable or something, one of my close friends told me that I don't seem to be okay these days..
These days, college takes most of my time that I isolated myself from the world, I don't even talk to my friends and stopped participating in outside activities and even staying away from my own family. I also don't laugh much or try to enjoy anything with anyone, and I'm no longer interested in politics or society. I don't know why I'm doing this tho, and it's stupid I know, but it's what is happening.
The song Avril sang, Here's for never growing up, talks about friendship, which really made me feel bad for not contacting my friends lately, the thing that bothers me.. I feel sad because I no longer talk with them, and stay alone most of the time. The only ones I meet are my college friends, which are close to me too, but I usually meet them to only work on our graduation project or attend something at college.
The state I left myself in made me really unable to work or to be productive, and maybe even made me lose my feelings and start to be a colder person. But sometimes it makes me want to cry a lot and sleep a lot..
This might be because I don't talk about it? I know now it's on my personal blog but actually since random people who don't know me read it, it feels like I'm screaming but without being heard. It may be because I don't want to bother my friends with the silly problems I face, they have their own after all and they have their own issues, and I'm not a cry baby to come everyday telling them about my problems and annoy them.. But it can also be because it's my last year and I'll be no longer able to see most of my college friends.. After giving it a deeper thought, it's all these reasons combined, plus the fact that I'm losing my self confidence and my strength.. plus me not being able to communicate well with people around me most of the time.
All I need to be sure of is: My friends won't hate me for this, and they won't stop being my friends just because I stopped talking to them lately.. because it seems like I'm already losing my closest friend no matter how much effort I'm putting to keep this friendship alive... What a mess!
I just need to tell my friends.. Here's for not growing up!
I just listened to it, and it's cool, but the problem is it made me feel so bad. I'm somehow not a very social person, but I do appreciate my friends and love them. Lately, I'm in a bad condition but never really talked about it to anyone, pretending to be strong and all. That doesn't mean that it wasn't noticeable or something, one of my close friends told me that I don't seem to be okay these days..
These days, college takes most of my time that I isolated myself from the world, I don't even talk to my friends and stopped participating in outside activities and even staying away from my own family. I also don't laugh much or try to enjoy anything with anyone, and I'm no longer interested in politics or society. I don't know why I'm doing this tho, and it's stupid I know, but it's what is happening.
The song Avril sang, Here's for never growing up, talks about friendship, which really made me feel bad for not contacting my friends lately, the thing that bothers me.. I feel sad because I no longer talk with them, and stay alone most of the time. The only ones I meet are my college friends, which are close to me too, but I usually meet them to only work on our graduation project or attend something at college.
The state I left myself in made me really unable to work or to be productive, and maybe even made me lose my feelings and start to be a colder person. But sometimes it makes me want to cry a lot and sleep a lot..
This might be because I don't talk about it? I know now it's on my personal blog but actually since random people who don't know me read it, it feels like I'm screaming but without being heard. It may be because I don't want to bother my friends with the silly problems I face, they have their own after all and they have their own issues, and I'm not a cry baby to come everyday telling them about my problems and annoy them.. But it can also be because it's my last year and I'll be no longer able to see most of my college friends.. After giving it a deeper thought, it's all these reasons combined, plus the fact that I'm losing my self confidence and my strength.. plus me not being able to communicate well with people around me most of the time.
All I need to be sure of is: My friends won't hate me for this, and they won't stop being my friends just because I stopped talking to them lately.. because it seems like I'm already losing my closest friend no matter how much effort I'm putting to keep this friendship alive... What a mess!
I just need to tell my friends.. Here's for not growing up!
